How forgiving so much evil is helping me

For years every time I thought about how much pain and filth was created by my so called friend, by an old evil man, by their colleagues, and the fact that I got more involved in drug use due to not knowing what was happening to my life, it lit up up fumes within inside of me. The more these people were around the stranger things became, the more drinking and drug use became. Now I understand the facts of their intentions of human destruction through meticulous planning (constant visual surveillance)insuring one of their investments, being me.


These people believe in nothing but greed and power. Their actions and way of life speak for themselves. Regardless of how much money they stole ( extorted), how much of my life they broad-casted, what offers were made, how much pleasure I created for their empty souls, the amount of entertainment that kept their so called highly intellectual thought process occupied, means nothing to me. Through the Word of God I am learning to forgive and realize my weaknesses are creating strengths. It has never been about how good they are but what  and howGod has chosen to direct my path. Through forgiveness I can live a better life